you are always thinking to die, so at least you have a desire to make it finished, then why don't you try to make it come true?
if you have nothing to do except commiting suicide, you have a right to choose it as your option.
you can just find the good tree to hang a rope, and check the website which explains how to make a good hangman's noose,
it doesn't take much time, just 2-3 days to finish everything you need, right?
but you don't.
perhaps you still have a reason to procrastinate it,
you don't like to suffer from the pain you suppoed to feel
life is simple and shorter than you think.
finish everything and kill yourself.
if you can't, you must have a reason. so kill the reason as soon as possible.